Carl,
> Carl:
> All of the stuff I've published was in magazines, which are good for a
> month and then go away.  I did a couple of video scripts that were
> produced, but they were essentially industrial, and therefore an
> exercise in frustration and excellent lessons in dealing with stuff I
> don't want to deal with.  I haven't even tried to get published for
> over 10 years now.  The magazine stuff was fun, but it was mostly
> fiction, which is what I like to do.  The magazine that I was being
> published in most often decided they didn't want to do fiction any
> more, so that went away.  That's about when I stopped trying to be
> published.  I'm living on disability right now too, for mental
> problems, (major depression) and an being "rehabilitated" by the
> state. i.e. they're paying for my college.  I'm working on a Master's
> degree in Counseling.  I spent a lot of years listening to people so I
> could do dialogue, and found that people really respond when you
> actually take the time to listen to them.  I can get paid (hopefully
> enough to live on) with the degree, and I like the idea of helping
> people, so it should work out okay.  I like it and I seem to be pretty
> good at it, so I'm going to do it.

Tuukka:
Good luck! I didn't get published when I just sent letters to
publishers. But the odds are much higher if I just happen to hang out
with the publisher somewhere, where people like us have fun, or do other
projects together. I was modeling for the shop that published my comics.
It's Varusteleka, Europe's largest web shop for army apparel and gear:
http://www.varusteleka.fi/index.php?lang=en_US . So, I was modeling for
coats and shoes and what not, such as:

http://www.leka-looks.fi/en/look/show/_3C90NFPSL/archivepage/2
http://www.leka-looks.fi/en/look/show/_3C90NC7AZ/archivepage/2
http://www.leka-looks.fi/en/look/show/_3B30NGQBR/archivepage/2

So I gave them one of the comic books, knowing already they liked my
comics. Soon they ordered 20 more, and they tried to order even more,
but I had sold out, so they made the second edition. That's the way I
like things to develop - organically! =)


>
> I don't know if I'll ever get back to writing like I used to.  The
> fire is mostly gone.  A lot of that happened after I took the
> anti-depressants for a year or so.  I'm not taking them any more, but
> the creative stuff is a lot more difficult now.  Before, people would
> ask me where I got my ideas, and my reply was, "How do you get them to
> stop?"  Now, I have to work for them. I do a blog now and then, but
> it's not something I feel driven to do.  If you're interested, it's at:

Tuukka:
I used to do a lot of quetiapine, above the maximum allowed dose
according to the instructions, but well below the maximum dose I know a
doctor to have perscribed. I was allowed to regulate my own meds by the
doctor because, well, I could do it. Triple or quadruple that dose, and
you're in ER already... given that "that dose" is 1000 mg, and before I
had tolerance, 25 mg would already make we feel extremely woozy! :D

Nowadays I don't do other meds besides modafinil, because it increases
cognitive abilities a lot regardless of whether one has some medical
condition. This is so much better than the amphetamine-like ADHD drugs.
I don't know how long ago you stopped meds. If it's only been a year or
two, you might get your abilities back. If it's been like seven years,
then it's a different story. I still can't write fiction like I used to,
when I was a child, but I have regained so many other abilities, and
still keep getting better. You know, I was born with a lot of abilities,
but I guess I didn't appreciate them so much before I lost them due to
insanity in 2005-2006. Every time now I feel I've regained an ability,
it makes me so happy. The best thing is I don't usually remember I used
to be able to do things like that. In fact, I have gained even abilities
I didn't use to have... well, enough of that. =)

>
> http://brokebrainfool.blogspot.com/
>
> The title of the blog pretty much sums it up, I think.  The one blog
> that I have linked is a friend in Canada.  He's also a cartoonist, so
> you might want to check it out.

I used to own www.insaneartist.net. But then I thought it doesn't
describe me. Now it's owned by someone else. I wish him good luck! :D

I've never been very much into poetry. There are exceptions such as
koans and a few strange people who don't publish, at least not yet. I
did like the one with the water and the ducks though... I can appreciate
poems but there are pretty far from where I usually go... hmm...

-Tuukka
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